he walked past and threw me a wangzai biscuit.
how can a HOD be so wacky!
and i looked hideous now because
1. i dun think he can find my eyes
2. i looked extremely ugly with oily hair

he gave me my share and he went back to take another piece again. heheh.

Sleepy and oily hair :/
Ohoh! i remembered an auntie trait of mine. i was shopping over at a shopping mall for combs and bought myself a wide-teeth set @ $5, and then got the brush with bristles of a shoescrapper. Was checking out how it works for your hair, as peiyu mentioned, they are supposed to brush and spread the natural oils from the scalp to the every end. Reading the instructions helped me to get to know the product better but all price stickers were pasted on it. i searched through each item and found one which i am able to fully read the whole chunk of userguide and the price was different. lucky shit. i immediately grabbed and pay at the counter and saved $2.40. So auntie right? but it saved me enough to get bubble tea so i happy. (shrugs)

soooooo. i had a bad day at work and this old man (the same one i mentioned yesterday) gave me 7 missed calls with his mobile and 5 missed calls on his DID. i am so glad i wasn't around to pick up my call and he had to call up other colleagues to harass them. Sometimes, its not always the noobs make mistakes. System doesn't give you what you want doesn't mean all mistakes are made by me okay~ i am zen so i took a suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper deeeeeeeeeeeep breathe, rubbed a fingerscope of tigerbalm on my temples and nose and i decided to laugh it off thinking how lucky i am for missing the unlucky 13 rings. maybe he likes my calltones huh :)
i don't care less on whatever all these are going to reflect on my work. Really, if they are good, they should be able to do the checking on their own instead.

cold sore should be fully healed in a few days, now i feel good; but my contacts giving me lots of problems. my eyesight might have increase cause i can't see clearly with this new pair of lens. its irritating to squint at my monitor. i'm afraid.. it could be another infection in the eye so i think i better stick to glasses for the next few days. Better for myself. I'm getting all kinds of shit sick illness lately.

Meeting some of the ex-colleagues for dinner tomorrow. Don't actually feel like going. Not because of deipnophobia (we haven met for at least 4 years), its just that.. i don't want to go. something is telling me not to go. i swear. But seeing Judy being extremely depressed and stressed out, i thought maybe i shouldn't be a wet blanket and just go ahead and make everyone's lives easier instead and giving them the foul mood of mine. Then everyone can be happy together (i doubt that, happiness occur outside work) but the next day we are still going to the reality. its bad and unhealthy but i should show i make effort to care for someone who think of me at times. i'm going back to DV tomorrow and no one will talk to me unless i go up to them. its hard to make them move and maybe i should just give it a rest; i can't do all these alone.
Hello and byebye isn't enough for me.

Lazy to go for yoga classes. i want to sleep early tonight.

3KM - 18:16minutes

I have forgot lots of stuffs which I want to post so I had to do reminders by writing somewhere and it should go straight to my drafts. Even if i have to wake up in the middle of the night, i will save it in my phone.
I hate the idea of people using FB to court girls like, posting "how are yous" are their walls and waiting for comments; and perhaps, the more the comments, the more it shows that you stand a chance? Or you just want to show everyone that you are still trying?

ah. I am so tired.

Was thinking of yesterday's coquettish manner to bf, makes me want to puke. He was complaining that i took a long nap and he was left alone so kelian. Seriously, i am quite sure he played online Poker, watched Poker Tourny 2009, finished a movie and how can he possibly be bored when i didnt have a chance to kajiao him? hwahwa! So he used his tactics to try to make me angry again by pushing me and in a moment of fit, i whinnned and pouted (wah goosebumps) and he immediately apologised and claimed that he knew he lost when i did that!
woohoo!
anyway. not because i am cute, its because he don't want to start a quarrel so he ended it well.
Earlier on, he called me and said he was sooo bored that he went to AMK to roam around because he don't want to stay at home. we were supposed to go JB for a feast but i can't (Read: Thursday entry, last sentence) due to WORK COMMITTMENTS. Poor him. i was wondering if he would wished that i was with him today so he won't have felt alone. He would be sucha dear. So in future, if i would ever have a chance to be a housewife (he have to be friggin rich), i will clean up the room and whip out a nice dinner, waiting for him to come home before lazing at the couch/sofa for a nice show. And if theres any chance when hubby were at home with me, i can bake afternoon cakes and we can have high tea together!~

"When you miss the sun, you'll still get to see the moon at night. When you miss the moon, remember you get to see the stars clearer"

i still don't understand the gaganess over Korean actors. The only Korean guy that i like was Daniel Hen(something). i think he is adorable.

and i am getting very vain lately. i have to put on makeup before i go out. is this part of the quarter-life crisis?! at least, draw lines on my fine eyebrows.
i am so proud of myself today. Despite being spam with rude emails by this old person from another department, i answer all his queries in a super dupe cool manner. But actually deep inside me i am cursing him for having such "manhood" in getting all so fumed up with this trivia matters. Petty man.

feeling extremely tired right now (i am still in the office). i wanted to get Oolong Tea, apples and wolfberries so that i can make tea for my boyfriend. Although i think red dates tea are the best!

ahhh! Was using Doctor's medicated Acyclovir 5%, used Bonjela on friday and Saturday and Carmex today. i heed all advices and tried whatever remedies. I might go get happy pills (Vitamin B complex from GNC) and it shall be my daily supplements.

i am thinking where to go later for our date. i wanted to go PS, and i want to Vivo to get huge pack of Skittles and also PageOne to source for Christmas gifts. But.. i don't feel too good because my berms is a little tight at the butt.

just want to update on baking soda wash. i want to dye my hair. how!

It feels good to have people asking you "hows your cold sore" or giving me advice on what to or how to cure. Never

know bonjela could work so i might just get one to try later.

now i know why i prefer to take leave and then come back to work on weekends. Perhaps, i just want to avoid people.

i'm feeling extremely pathetic today.

i need to get a kaki who can play bishi bashi 3. i am dying to play that.

Thursday, 10th Dec

i went to bed with my hair wet last night. and i woke up having extremely greasy looking hair. i didn't have enough time to rinse with water so it wasn't a concern at this point of time. Besides. i had bs yesterday so i thought it will be better later when its more dry.
Apparently no.
i met up with Davina and she asked me what happen to my hair? i told her it just feel like its not dried and she mentioned innocently that it looked as if i had not washed my hair for days.
OMG!
the first thing i do when i reached the office was to grab my towel and head to the bathroom and washed my hair with some of the leftover castile. Luckily i left like half a bottle. so now, its all spick and span. whahwhawhawawa!
must remind myself to pour a 50ml and standby them for next emergency use.

i hate the auntie colleague. i wont be nice and in future if they need help, i will not help. i, WILL, NOT, HELP.

was rushing for the last shuttle but I still missed it. didn't manage to post my blog entry. I just hope I can reach AMK fast!

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just want to record on my BS wash.
i want to start on christmas cards but i don't know how!
no ideas at all.

i sucked big time: HOD talked to me and i didn't finished my sentence and she was waiting for my answer again. WTF?!

//

Anyway, everyone was given free calltones so don't be alarmed if you hear a different ringing sound when you call me. The music was so not me but the rhymdm was superb, i like! so quirky!

//

i just want to get this out of my chest. i had been wanting to rant to fish on the people/friends/colleagues around me. Not that i always don't mention them and even if i did, nothing comes out good. yesyes. You see, ever since i was exile to the foreign building with white elephants, nothing seemed to remember me after that. No one cared. i went back for training, ex-boss saw me. i thought i would at least get things like " hey kj! nice to see you here, how are you? good and blah? etc"
Instead, the first sentence that come out from him was "are you doing overtime?" (roll eyes REALLY HARD). fine. or else, i seldom receive e-mails from anyone of them. i thought they were so busy that they totally stopped forwarding me spam mails but no. Recently, the only e-mails i received from them was asking me to order threadless tees for them. Thats all. i'm still waiting for greeting mails like "hows life?" and it never happened. i doubt it will happen, like i said, no one really cared. no one does, no one do, no one did. Worst is, after confirming their orders, they totally forgot about me again. yay!
Some actually tell Ken off for forgetting my birthday. But apart from wishing me, they didn't do anything either. so why? why rebuke people for doing things which they themselves didn't as well?
As least Ken came to have lunch with me for no reason. Not like, you all came here to eat and "顺便“ ask me come down eat. Speaking of which, i totally have no lunch kakis. Very good, i can go anywhere i like and have my lunch and then continue with activity like reading. i am not complaining. Although it might make me look as if i am anti-social but why put on a mask while eating? We are going to have a gift exchange i don't wish to participate but i don't think its going to build a better rapport with them so i had to get a gift. I don't know what these little girls / aunties like. YOU TELL ME.

(actually the statement was quite mean. please read and forget)

Very weird. Someone on twitter gave me a link to Tiffany's pendant. Bf told me that he need to work hard so that he can get me a Tiffany ring. i said, i don't want a Tiffany ring as engagement ring or whatsoever; Tiffany's should only be given as a gift, not for weddings and one should not pay so much for branding.

its not good to put mm and cold sore as tag together. He offered me an eggtart again. i keep taking whatever he gave me. if i don't take, like don't give face. if i always take, i like very gian peng. what to do sia?

i was too lazy yesterday so i didn't go to work. i woke up on the morning to find my lower lip itchy. i checked out my mirror and saw a tiny bump. a blister instead. Yes, its here again.
i applied the virless drying agent cream on it and i felt sian to do anything already. Had wanted to go back to work so that i can claim a few hours of overtime but secondary school friends ended up wanting to have dinner in the evening so i stayed home and Ken called me asking me wheres the Communication Session and he knew i was watching PPS so he declared that day as my PPS Day.

anyway. the bump now getting a bit lumpy with a little water. its drying up. as long as it doesn't burst i should be fine in a week. and i was telling myself that i need to stay happy and stressless but was KO-ed by heels on my little toe and then i tried to be happy with all the work i had then there are people who always want to challenge me at any hour. i couldn't help but feeling a little upset but i will pick myself up! Not to worry. I am sitting at my work station, clearing cases and the white cream on my lips. i just hoped less people walked past here so that they wont see and stop asking me 'whats that on your lips" or whatsoever. Its not very appropriate for me to say i HAVE HERPES ON MY LIPS AND IT JUST SOUND SO HIV WRONG. Anw, its the cousin of the below down there and i need to avoid arginine (protein) and absorbed as much lysine as possible. which means, i can't take nuts and chocolate. i can take ice-cream. BUT NOT SO SURE ABOUT CHOCOLATE NUTS ICE-CREAM or whatever. i had to watch my diet and i think i need to skip lunches to play safe. Most soup have soya bean base so yay! green grass and milk taste fantastic right now for me. Plain water should do me good as well.
i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy i must be happy

SCSM run results are out. My timing was 01:16:28. i walked too much, but its good enough. ahwah! Thats greediness for you when you hydrate with 2 cups of ice mountain and 1 cup of 100 plus at one go on your 6km.

Sister and BIL celebrated my birthday for me and i am so touched. Cause i haven had a birthday cake for ages. And they haven't sang me a song since i was 9.

i finished my 100 senses book and i want to go preppy style. i need a pair of good aviators. Its the time to dress up if not i don't know what would be the appropriate age. Fish, can we go out together soon?

ah. i am so tired.

the most important thing now is to bring myself up again. i shall not brood over the cold sore that i had and just remain as fabulous as ever. it will heal if i remain nice and calm and not getting jitters. i must be good and smile and confident.

this is what i am going to do.

work lots of overtime and boyfriend will take me out and we will have a goood date! :D
meantime, i just have to read through the sites and drink lots of vitamin c and eat lots of supplements. i remembered i stopped taking them since last week. Will make use of the birthday month to go Watsons to get lots of stuff. Angelina lent me the BS book which have lots of useful tips and i am not going to spend money getting the facial scrubs. Using BS will do. i can save up lots of money this way too.

Alright. i need to catch some sleep. No more Privileged at late nights because its taking too long to load. Perhaps i should start bring my netbook to work cause i need not train for any runs during lunch and i can't find a cosy corner and watch the shows for all i want. (remember, i have no lunchmates)
good idea. Starting on Wednesday then;
i have yoga class tomorrow. Body is aching already!

& smile everyone! You do look good showing your teeth!

i thought i should be free from all sorts of worries and everything; no.
i thought after the SCSM run, i can do whatever things i wanted already; no.
because why?
my cold sore is back.

must be the soymilk. and the steamboat with soya bean soup base.
i'm doomed.

p/s: i had to drink the soymilk yesterday because MM bought it for me. He told me to hydrate myself. WHY!

aiyo. forgot what i want to post.
i only remembered i am going to work lots of overtime.

i couldn't sleep much last night. i drank a lot of water and ate too much candy. The first thing that i did this morning when i woke up was to switch on my tv on Super Sports and watch the Standard Chartered Run live. it was exciting. i am impressed to see the Kenyans reaching ECP in just an hour, which is like 20+km. Scary can?

i met up with Ziling and Angelina together and after relieveing ourselves we reached start to run @8.35am. i tried to speed up focusing and trying to find my colleagues. i didn't so i just ran and ran and ran. The first 5 km was normal and then i start to slow down. Until i reached 6km i told myself, ok, i need a drink since i only treadmill 5km at the gym everytime. so i drank a cup, took another cup and then shit, saw 100plus. i want to drink 100plus! and i grabbed another. i practically walked after that because i am feeling full and got stitches for going faster.
See lor, this is call greediness.
The motivators and all the cheering makes me want to run faster but then i slowed down again after passing them for 3 meters (hwahwa!) Until, i reached the last kilometer and i suddenly felt a tap on my back. It was Judy, she said she finally caught up with me and she held my hands and we ran together. This sounds silly but at the point of them, i nearly want to cry liao. No wonder boyfriend told me its boring to run alone because no one talk with you. I am really glad that Judy found me and got me to run with her. If not, i will nua and we ran and ran and ran and we finally reached the finishing point. i am so proud of myself and her. and me, getting all silly and jumpy, kissed her on her cheek. hwahwa!. Just like how i kissed Clarrie when we got champion for SP Tennis Competition. haiyo!
We then start to take lots of pictures. The corporate picture, and then i purposely stand very near Terry but.. of course lah, he was asked to move to the front and then half way through, Judy suddenly shouted because MY ANG MOH BOYFRIEND IS HERE STANDING BESIDE ME!♪. i natural high liao. but i am quite sure the photo cant see my face, only my thumbs up hands in the air. so. i asked Judy to take a picture of me, sneakily getting Terry and Tim in the background and suddenly again, Tim came up to me. i think he knows we are trying to take his pictures so i asked if i can take a picture with him.
Here Goes!

i think i looked gross
anyway a couple of photos with Terry as well so i have to wait for them to load into intranet first!

and, i am not so fabulous today because i can't hide my feelings. Judy asked me to join them for polariod picture taking but i didnt. She knows why. if Fish is reading, she will know also. hwahwa! anyway, the pictures that the promoter took isnt as nice. Too much exposure to the sun. think the instant polariod can only be taken indoors, then it will looked better.

Sorry if you found lots of mistakes in my entry. i am now working (TIM is here too) and i had headache liao. i have to drink plenty of water.

Kudos to whoever finished the race! My boyfriend ran a long distance today. Poor him. i forced him to join us for family steamboat later.

alright. back to work.

one thing i like working alone over at the new building is because there isnt anyone around. Now that there are people, it makes me feel like the normal working day which is equivalent to sian. i have post this before because it felt like a i am repeating.

anyway, bf and me went for dinner and then we went to @313 Somerset. He had wanted to check out the sweats at UNIQLO but as it was new opening, we have to queue and he hates queueing so we gave up the idea. we went to ZARA and i saw this grey military jacket with mandarin collar. it was beautiful! i tried on and looked gross cause its wrapped nicely on me but it doesn't do my washboard body (at chest, stomach big as hell) any justice so i glanced through the mirror and took it off without really examine carefully. There isnt a size M so i just walked away. A little regretful because i was thinking about it while we made our way to Orchard MRT station.
i woke up this morning had wanted to get it before going to work so that i can leave it in the office and bring it to show my sister. i called up the Ngee Ann outlet to check for available sizes, lest making a wasted trip and i might even had to work till late to just clock the 6 hours overtime. The Filippino told me they only had size S left; i called up ION but this lady was like why can't you get the item number before calling? i told her i can only describe the details that i know and she was saying this in mandarin: 不要害我
i raised my voice and letting her know that i called because i needed help, not finding trouble for you. i heaved loudly and said its ok and hung up.

i don't want the thing already.

//

i suddenly cannot stomach the fact that i am actually going to run standard chart 10km.
leaving my bag here in the office and i hope i didn't leave anything behind cause i am not going to bring any stuff to run tomorrow. IC and money are the things that i need, i supposed?

i am very tempted to bring my camera to the run but its not a good idea because i just want to finish the run fast and go back to the office the quickest way ever to earn money and then head to my sister's place. Besides, the weather is unpredictable so i better not risk it.

Didn't have much things to blog.

oh btw, i thought running 10km was good enough. but i realised the HODs in front of me all run half marathon. wah biang! they are like so much older than me and can run. Those younger than me also can run more than me. so i am what? Even MM is running 21km ok.
i am going to paste a funny(stupid) e-mail from me to the organiser:

ME:
Hi!
I know I am going to sound noob here but.. the running shoes that I had doesn't come with shoe laces! (its Velcro)
How am I going to attach it???
(pull hair)
Rgds

Their reply:
Dear XXX
Thank you for your interest in this year's Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2009.
I refer to your email dated 02/12/09. Please be informed that you may find other alternative to attach the timing chip to your shoe.
We seek your kind understanding.
We look forward to seeing you at the start line on 6th December 2009.

i don't think thats the reply i wanted. anyway, when you ask a stupid question, you get a stupid answer. hwahwha. i don't expect a good answer. Thats why i regretted clicking the send button. seriously. i post this here so that you can laugh at me.

anyhoots. i solved my problem.

I tied a ribbon to the shoe. I dun want to risk blisters if I change.

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November

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After reading hundred senses, i realise i sucked at fashion. And i immediately thought of Wenda. And how Judy told me she doesn't need her boyfriend to stick with her all the time. She wanted to have all the personal time she can have and not like meeting him once a week, once a fortnight is ok. i cannot do something like this. And she can always looked so pretty and nice and confident in her outfits and i wanted to do the same as well. Perhaps, once i learn all the good vibes from her, i can be half as good.
Oh. She is my fabulous guide in all sorts. Fish is my fabulous guide in knowledge and everything with regards to going green :)

i'm doomed. Its 3 days away from the run and goodfriend isn't here yet. COME LIAO.

Was refering to my spreadsheet; if i clocked 25 hrs of overtime hours, i would be able to pay for a decent sewing machine. All i need to do now is to find some space as my workspace.

i'm thinking for the next coming birthdays, maybe i should just list down the vague item that i wanted and then whoever wanted to get me something, should buy that for me. Like, the theme: UNDERWEAR. And then people will get all sorts, cheap and nice and pretty!

Married at my age and a Events Marketing Manager. What am i? a little boogie. Its ok to be a boogie but i'm a boogie who doesn't seem to make any difference in this team and you might not even catch me clinging onto the wall. (i did contribute to the corporate. For that, i digress).

Anyway, i need to help my boss (in overtime/production terms) so i might have to make arrangements for friends gathering already.

Although the colleagues here dumped lots of things back to me, they did they fair share in following-up MUCH MORE important cases (aka e-mails to IMPORTANT people) but i still sent an e-mail to thank them. it makes me feel better even though they don't even acknowledge the mail.
ok. i didn't checked properly.
i thought she helped a lot but no. only with one case. i thought she did helped caused i saw lots of printouts on my table probably already there last week (moi not over at Green since 23rd Nov - 1st Dec). The rest were my own printouts or void/duplicate cases which i had stacked at the corner on my table and apparently, it was MIXED WITH THE NEW CASES. Fanstastic. Clap Clap. And... because i'm on training, they took over the 101 lines that i had provisioned and case closed them. Left me without any productivity. Even it had nothing to do with my boss and if she is going to cut my incentive based on the "low" productivity for November, i am surely going to raise issues.

i just want to justify for my ex-team. everyone blames them for all the things that they didn't do. its not like its their fault. seriously, ot means stupid boss right? who wouldn't want to go back on time after knocking off? its not like their choice to slog until their face turn green and they
i shouldn't meddle with too much stuffs. i had enough problems of my own.

very hungry and have cravings for otah. i need to get stressballs.

3KM - 17:57minutes

I dreamt of crossing a ladder just to talk to a enemy who I wanted to friend again.
she had abngs and pretty and heavy makeup.

hm..

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Its the best thing ever but guys, please really think carefully before making his decision:
i was watching Privileged and Charlie wanted his girl to move in with him after the landlord had increased the rent and the girl agreed. Only to know its not all about her. Its the wardrobe, fridge, an extra bed and standing lamp and many more. hwahwa! i can imagine this happening to my boyfriend. He will flipped because my wardrobe can cover his comics bookshelf, dressing table (and his computer table) and his mini wardrobe that he shared with his youngest brother.

Ohno.

i woke up at a decent time today @ 10am. Not too early, but the start gets me going and i still have time to do loads of stuffs in the noon. Managed to "brew" a nice cup of tea (dumping teabag) and watched Privileged via pps. Love this program, bf and i were hooked on this HK drama series and we decided to spend our weekends staying cosy and watching shows. Rcvd a couple of smses already, feeling great because these people mean a lot to me. FB could be the birthday reminder but at least they cared and bothered to text me. heh heh. i'm waiting for Fish to get back to me so that we can plan where to go this evening. I just feel like shopping for perfumes, watches (the gold Casio Baby-G) and the white Aldo bag and use my new Fujiflim Instax to take some photos to mark this day. i have this idea of getting myself shot via the ID photo booth to mark my birthdays but we will see how today, the pimples are still as red. i need to be stress/worry-free so that the hormones inside could adjust and make me a better complexion. The body is a very weird thing.

uh huh! Speaking of which, i didn't have chance to post this so i shall do it now. Attended a friend's wedding at Swiss'Otel on Saturday and boyfriend booked a room so that we can stayed over after some drinking. Was overwhelmed with the view on 61th storey. Kind of breezy and could see everything except Flyer. hwahwa. Not that i care much but it will be better if i can get Flyer in the pictures. Anyway, the wedding was really heart-warming and can sense the couple's joy. They are truely blissful with each other. Leya is really a crybaby like me.

oh. so, i was checking out the items in hotel and i brought back the matchbox and some tea for samples. hurhur. They are currently my new hobby (collecting matchboxes and tea labels). So much different flavours and internet did mentioned about using tealeaves in castile soap shampoo so i thought i can use it to try? besides, i don't want spending money to get tea which i might end up not liking the taste.
excuses, i know. Its like a bad habit. but...thats me. heh :p

yes, i am doomed.
Suddenly, the 6 pimples popped out from my face, without any pus in them, its just red and swollen and gross. and i am qure that they are bruised from the strong sunlight from the past few days.
i am doomed. i can't reduced the redness unless i conceal (but i don't want to put makeup on the spots) or i will be like a teenager lurking around the neighbourhood or town. i think bf nearly die when he saw me on friday. my right cheek is like filled with the bumps and my chin are red with just 2 red molehills.
this is the most serious facial problem i ever had. i tried drinking lots of water and.. ahhh!! how???!!!!!!!

must be the stressed i've got for the past week. Menses should just come here anyday make me lie on bed and not going to work.
Speaking of work, ever since the training week, i took leave on friday, today Monday and today. i have to drag myself to work on wednesday.

the thought of it i sian already. as bimbotic as i sound, this is nothing compared to the face i have now ok.

I forced bf to make a wacky face and made him wrote on the polaroid. muacks

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